OK, it's confession time. I am a HUGE narcissist. I mean, obviously I think I'm the greatest, better than your boyfriend, etc. But at least that is all true beyond any doubt.
What I'm talking about today is different. I am my biggest fan. If I make a new song, I will listen to it for at least 24 hours on repeat. Often times I listen on my computer, then play it in the bathroom while I take a shower. When I'm in front of the mirror I lip sync and dance to my own music, imagining that I am performing it. Then after my shower I listen to it in the car while I drive.
Is this normal? Or at least healthy?
Usually I only listen to one of my songs on repeat. However, this trip I have been listening to Kristen, Mystery, and Better than your Boyfriend on shuffle. It's almost like a drug. When the stewardesses make us put away our MP3 players, I get antsy because I want to hear myself sing "There's a little bit of thug in everyone...".
How weird is this? I KNOW I'm not as good as my other favorite rappers. It's blatantly obvious. However, for some reason I still prefer listening to myself. Maybe it's some sort of comfort thing because my voice is familiar. A lot of times I make new songs because I've listened to my old ones 1000 times and want variety.
And this isn't even limited to music. I can't tell you how many tmes I watched our Amazing Race application video on repeat. It clearly wasn't even very good because we didn't make it on the show. My survivor video was just me talking to a camera. I watched that well over 100 times.
I even read my own blog. If I'm bored, I go read stories I've written. Your guess is as good as mine as to how many times I've listened to my Tycast. It's just me talking! Still, I couldn't help but press play over and over again.
The only exception I can think of is pictures. I never like looking at pictures of myself for some reason. I think I look pretty good in real life and in video, but awful in pictures.
This has been on my mind for a while and seems pretty weird to me. Is anyone else like this with their music / videos / writing?