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How am I doing on my Goals?

So back in January, I wrote out my 7 goals for the year. It's been two months, so let's see how I'm doing :

1. Become FULLY polyphasic

I'm close on this one. Many days I go perfectly, sometimes if I have nothing to do I oversleep and then skip some naps during the day. I'm actually pretty satisfied with that, as I'm only sleeping 2.5-4.5 hours per night, I'm never tired, and can always count on being awake early and staying up late. I'll keep pressing to be more consistent, but I'm satisfied with where I am.

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On The Sore Dragonfly

Again, writing the first couple of words is always the hardest. I want to go ahead and apologize for all the errors and mistakes, as I will have many of them. I have decided not to edit my own posts. I have been on edit mode for a long time now and I think it is time for me to just do, without thinking. This is going to be a blog of one tired girl, who is trying to figure her life out. It is my journey, at times very painful, in the search of me, who I am. I have always been a ghost of those around me, the guys I dated, the friends I had, the job I worked. I have always tried to hide behind them, I am the perfect chameleon, who can dedicate her whole self for someone else and then sit in the corner and complain that noone loves her. How can anyone, if I myself never tried to properly meet myself. I never needed anybody to put me down, because I can fulfill that task pefectly on my own. I have millions of ideas, but I never start them, because I am so scared, always so afraid that I will sound silly, that I will be unsuccessful, that I will just abandon it in the middle, as I always do. I am 27 and a half (this part is very crucial, because for the last six months i was dead sure that I was 28, until very recently I realized that, wait a second, I am still 27) and all my life I was sure that I was destined to be a writer. You guessed it right, I haven't even finished a blog post. Everything left in the middle. Once in a while, I find a great writer and be relieved to find out that they were much older than me when they wrote their first book. Now, I am sure that I will never have the guts to even start a book, so I am starting this blog. This is my plea to myself. I am doing this in a very loud cafe, full of pain and random people. And I am not letting myself a second thought. If I was a stranger reading this, I would probably think that this girl is crazy. What is so huge about starting a blog? Well, nothing really, everyone has done it, even I have done it in the past, but this time things are different. They just are. And I hope I will be able to continue this and just show how changed they have. If anybody reads this, thank you! From the bottom of my heart!

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