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Time to Date Again! Introduce Me!

As you must know if you read my blog regularly, I really enjoy making extreme resolutions and then sticking to them. One was deciding in 2012 that I wouldn't date until 2015.

I had a weird mental shift in 2012. I've always wanted to settle down and start a family, but until 2012 I would add the word "eventually" to the sentence. At some point a switch flipped and I realized that if the next girl I dated ended up being the one I settled down with, I was ready.

Being in the early stages of a startup, I didn't feel like I had time to invest in a relationship like that. And I wanted to really focus on work. So, much to the chagrin of grandchild-wanting family members, I stopped dating.

Overall, it worked. Three years may have been a little bit too long, and there were definitely times I wished I was dating, but overall I had great focus and made good progress. I'd give the experiment a B+.

Exposure therapy story #1

On HOCD

Originally posted on 27th Dec 2014 at 07:54 PM

I come out as gay to some people. A lot of them act weirded out and think it's just a phase I'm going through. They start to talk to me about boys way more. They mention all of the sexy boys they're attracted to. Whenever I look at a boy for more then one second they assume I'm attracted to him.

I end up dating some girls after getting rejected a lot. I end up having no attraction to them. Later I end up in a relationship with a girl. At first I think I'm attracted to her, but feel nothing when she kisses me. When we have sex I act grossed out and absolutely inexperienced. She breaks up with me and tells me that I'm just a stupid and confused straight girl.

I later meet this guy. He plays guitar amazingly and I have butterflies in my stomach when I'm with him. Everyone was right. I'm actually just straight. I end up saying him and we have an amazing relationship. I know know what people in love songs are talking about. The only reason I didn't like guys when I was younger is because I'm autistic. Autistic people don't feel attracted to people until they're older. My feelings for girls were just my imagination. I'm actually just straight.

I later introduce people to my new sexy, guitar playing boyfriend. Everyone is confused for a second. Then they realize I'm just like every other teen girl. I went through a phase and know I know I'm truly straight.

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