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Sunk Costs

Last night I played poker at Bellagio in Las Vegas. At one point I got pocket queens, a tremendously good hand. The hand played as expected until the last card. I got raised by a mediocre player which meant that I could be assured that he had made his hand. I had hundreds of dollars in the pot, but I folded. The money was spent, and chasing after it wouldn't do me any good.

When I got home, I cleaned up my place and packed for my trip the next morning. Several months earlier I had used some airline points to book a round trip flight to Hong Kong. I stayed up late to get myself tired for the flight, and went to sleep.

The next morning I woke up to my alarm. I packed up my laptop, brushed my teeth, got dressed, and began to dial the number for the taxi company to take me to the airport. I paused for a minute and then put down the phone.

Why was I going to Hong Kong? I like Hong Kong a lot, especially this one teahouse in the park. And I had twelve hours in Seoul, which I was looking forward to. But beyond that, there was no reason to go. I was going by myself and had nothing planned. On the other hand, I had tons to do in Las Vegas. I'd finally gotten a stove, so I could complete the kitchen remodel I was working on. I had lots of regular work to do, too.

What are you avoiding?

On Drew Millar

My original plan with my blog was to write a few introductory posts to get the ball rolling. You know, build a bit of momentum before I actually need to be creative. However, I'm sitting down to dinner and had a thought I'd like to put out there. Maybe a bit of a revelation for me.

So I consider myself to be a pretty social person. I'm not THE most naturally charismatic person in the world, but I generally don't have trouble meeting new people and turning them into friends. It actually took some concerted effort to get to this point, but that is another story for another time. Bottom line, I've experienced social anxiety in the past and putting myself out there is something I still think about. It's like a skill or a challenge, but at this point, most would consider be pretty outgoing.

I moved to Amsterdam a little over a year ago and one part of my daily routine is my hour and half commute to work...by train. Especially in the mornings, my favorite thing to do in the train is drink a coffee and read a book. I've probably read 25 books in the train since moving out here. It's relaxing, helps me think, and I like it. On the way back home, my eyes are usually a bit tired from staring at a computer screen most of the day so I read only occasionally.

Another way to spend your time on the train is through socializing. I work for a big company in Nike and there are a lot of employees who take the train from Amsterdam to work everyday. Having been out here a while, I almost always run into acquaintances and people I know vaguely from work. The problem is, even though I like to be social at work and outside of work, it's not really my thing on the train. I'd rather read or relax. Not only that, but if you run into someone, chances are you will be with them for over an hour. That's like a date. Maybe even longer than a date.

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