It's fucking early in the morning. I'm at Ty's house. Ty and Neetu are asleep, and I'm left here to battle it out on my own. The last two naps did nothing, except left me hanging in the middle of a sleep cycle. I have a constant dull pain/sleep signal going off in my forhead and behind my eyes. I felt some chest pain earlier. I have to pee a lot, and still very cold and hungry all the time. We went downtown to pass the time during the last cycle. I was too tired to really get into it, but damn did the time fly. We left quick to get back in time for the 1am nap, which sucked ass. My brain is fuxored, my eyes can't focus for very long at any one time. This must be what being addicted to pain killers is like. Maybe I will die.
On the plus side, I haven't had to drive for a few days thanks to my new chauffers Ty and Neetu.
I have a test next Monday and a paper due next Tuesday. I expect to hit some refreshing naps soon so I'll be able to study and get that done. People in my classes were like "you're going to have memory loss, you can't remember stuff on sleep deprivation."
Regular readers of this blog know how I love to do challenges! Every once in awhile, I like to create a challenge that will shake things up for me and get me “unstuck” when I feel like I’m in a rut. While past challenges have addressed either diet (like the Rainbow Challenge) or exercise (like 1,000,000 steps in 100 days), this time I’m focusing on something totally different - my mental health.
Lately I have been procrastinating a lot, putting off important work that needs to get done. It’s had me feeling a little down on myself, so I'm hoping that completing this challenge will put some fresh wind in my sails. I noticed that a lot of my procrastinating time is spent online, obsessively checking my email, Facebook and Twitter accounts and my blog stats. Sometimes, in combination, I do these things thirty times a day. It is completely wasted time, and a deliberate distraction. So, this Sunday, I’m going to hit the reset button by spending a full 24 hours Screen-Free.
From the time I wake up Sunday morning until the time I wake up Monday morning, I will not look at a single screen. I won’t open my laptop, turn on my desktop, turn on the TV or text anyone on my phone. If I drive anywhere, I won’t use the dashboard navigation system. I will make only one screen exception, which will be to answer my cell phone if anyone calls me.
I’m hoping to not only show myself that I can survive for a whole day without these things, but I’m interested in seeing how deeply ingrained these first-world habits have become. I am wondering how many times I'll catch myself wanting to quickly look something up on the computer or binge-watch a few episodes of our latest Netflix obsession. I’m guessing it will be a lot.
I plan to spend my day reading, meditating, cooking healthy food, socializing with friends, walking my dogs and going for a bike ride. Oh, and I’ll be writing a blogpost about the experience - using pen and paper, of course!