It's the second night of our new polyphasic napping transition. It's insane. I am sooooo psyched that this is actually going to work out. Ty is already passed the hard phase, so it's totally possible. It's 4:40 in the morning and he is more than functional. My last nap was a failure. I laid there trying to fall asleep with no luck. so, i missed that one. Oh well, the next one is in 20 minutes. I'm gonna sleep like a baby. During the day, the napping is great because it is an energy burst every 3 1/2 hours. Who wouldn't like that. I was much more alert and attentive today during school, which normally doesn't happen. This is a great way to continue living. I will have so much more time to do all of the things that I have even the slightest interest in pursuing or just trying out. Ok, too tired to write. It takes too long to type right now and my eyes are getting blurry. Reminder to self: post congratulatory/encouragement letter to myself during next cycle.
after 2 naps that were less than satisfactory, I was able to get in a great nap. My body is craving a full night's rest,so I did not wake up feeling totally rested. I feel like I would after a night with 8 hours of sleep,but waking up on the "wrong" side of the bed. Just a little bit sluggish I suppose.
Manish's after nap comment:"For some reason, all of my tiredness is in my left eye" very funny and bizarre.
okay, continuing on....The first few minutes after waking up are pretty foggy, but after a little while my mind totally clears out and I can function again without thinking about my next nap.
Sometimes it feels like its all a struggle...some days I feel like I went down the wrong path and life and am fighting to correct it. I had a great job that I really liked, it was certainly a challenge but it was fun and I loved it. Then the economy took a downturn along with my income and the kids were not getting a good education in school (another story in itself) so things got pretty stressful. I had a friend closer to home that had been running an IT services startup, and had been trying to recruit me for two years to be his first official employee. The pay seemed more stable than my other tech consulting/sales job in the music industry. So after much thought I moved my family and took the job. Very quickly however I realized this was a mistake, but it was too late...there was no going back. The startup was not even remotely in a financial position to make my wages and within three months I was out. WOW...also since I was considered a contract employee I was not eligible for unemployment, nothing, zero, zip...so here I was stuck up a creek without a paddle.
I spent the next few days going on lots of walks, thinking about what to do. The plan was to some day start my own business but I certainly was not ready now. Here I was stuck in a city I had lived only three months, with no savings, no funding, no income and no network to even meet customers. Needless to say I was stressed. So I decided, right then and there, I don’t need to chase anyone for a paycheck. I will generate my own income one way or another. So I started taking contract work from sites like onforce and started a production/design company with no knowledge of how to run one or how to get customers or anything. It was TOUGH, a massive struggle, especially when we were falling behind on our bills anyway. Every morning I would wake up and apply for jobs, then try and find customers and then contract tech work.
Several times we had our power shut off, and were constantly behind on rent. My wife found a few temp jobs, then got a nice full time one. But the job market was not kind on either one of us. I thought for sure I would be kicked out of my house and my family would have to move in with my parents. It was devastating. I remember seeing work orders come through on onforce to fix TV’s, and I thought “I have no idea how to fix a TV, im a tech guy with a audio engineer/IT background” Then when things got bad I figured “Well if I am losing my house anyway, who cares if I break a TV its not like they can sue me, I don’t have any money” So I starting fixing TV’s, and you know what, it was EASY work. Then I started working on servers, and doing vonage installs and I could do them. I could do them all, once in a while I had a contract job that would really stump me, but I would struggle through it. Customers started coming in and I started making websites for local businesses. I made some money from composing music and video production as well. I had applied for about two hundred jobs at this point, and gotten a few interviews but none of them offered enough money for me to be interested. By now I was almost making 40k from design and contract work, but the income was all over the map. I remember making $5000 one month and $500 the next.
We bought groceries every few days in small amounts as we had money. Now 40k was not NEAR the kind of money I was accustomed to making and is certainly not enough to raise a family, but I am still proud of that number. Just imagine being dropped in a city where you know no one and have ZERO resources and go make a living. Try it, I dare you. Do it with a rent payment and a family to feed. It took years off my life, but it really changed my perspective about life and the system in general.