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How am I doing on my Goals?

So back in January, I wrote out my 7 goals for the year. It's been two months, so let's see how I'm doing :

1. Become FULLY polyphasic

I'm close on this one. Many days I go perfectly, sometimes if I have nothing to do I oversleep and then skip some naps during the day. I'm actually pretty satisfied with that, as I'm only sleeping 2.5-4.5 hours per night, I'm never tired, and can always count on being awake early and staying up late. I'll keep pressing to be more consistent, but I'm satisfied with where I am.


On becoming kelsea

I'm not sure how I should be approaching college. Am I here to learn all the math and science I can and cram it all into my head for a short period of time until I forget it all? At this point, that's what I'm being pushed towards. That's how people treat college, as purely academic. Maybe there's some truth and goodness to that. It is good to learn things. But people here in calculus and physics and chemistry and all the hard sciences seem miserable. No one retains the information. These classes are just looming over their heads, causing ten weeks of stress and fear.

I don't want college to be like that. I've started taking college as not a place to grow just academically, but just as a person too. I'm taking classes, that while they fulfill GE requirements, aren't necessarily the maths and sciences people think I should be taking. I have one class that I have no choice in taking so that's whatever. But then I'm also taking classes like Buddhism and photography and a biology class that just sound interesting. These professors are supposedly some of the best. And not like the best like they have the highest degree or most awards in their field. But best in a sense that the students notice that they're in love with the chosen field. I think that's important, to be exposed to people that genuinely like what they're doing and actually want to teach you.

For me, college is starting to become a place where I can just gather experiences. I want to take classes that are interesting and will maybe impact my life in some way. I want to have professors who want to teach me and who have the best stories to share. I don't necessarily want to learn calculus or chemistry and I'm not sure if that's bad.

People are always saying you should do what you like and find a career in that. But often times, if you're not a biology or computer science or engineering major or something along those lines, they say that you have no chance of a career. But I just have no desire for any of those.

This not knowing what I'm doing is tough and starting to confuse me even more.

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