Last night was rough. Waking from a nap in the middle of the night does not jive with me yet--daytime is much better. When waking from a nap in the middle of the night, your mind starts saying stuff like "what's the point of this shit", "maybe you should do this later, after school...you might fail your tests if you don't get sleep." It's funny how my mind has a bullshit generator installed and running in the background at all times to keep me safe. It will belch out some instant rationalization why I shouldn't move past my limits at the first sign of discomfort. Fortunately, in this instance, I'm able to recognize it and adjust accordingly.
I didn't have much to do last night, as I had little planning going in to this. We were supposed to start on Nov. 21st. Every activity, and every minute of every cycle were to be planned out in a spectacle of time-management, but we jumped the gun and just went for it, figuring we could always do that later.
I felt really good, alert, and positive after my 2:30 nap today, although my body is seemingly cold and hungry at all times. My low blood pressure causes me to have cold extremities most of the time anyways, so I can deal with it. Before the nap I had drowsiness and heavy feelings in my chest and of course eyes.
I've really been thinking a lot about future vs. present, ever since reading The Time Paradox. Do you live every day like it's your last, do you save everything for the future, or do you find a happy medium?
One of the conclusions that I've come to, which might be blatantly obvious to everyone but me, is that time management should be exactly like money management. It's the same problem: how do you use a finite resource throughout your whole life for maximum benefit?
Thinking of time like money rules out the extreme ends of the spectrum. We all know what it looks like when someone spends every dollar they get as soon as it's dropped into their hands, and none of us envy that person (although some imitate him). Saving everything and never spending any money isn't that great of an idea, either. What's the point of having money if it gets buried next to you?
