It's fucking early in the morning. I'm at Ty's house. Ty and Neetu are asleep, and I'm left here to battle it out on my own. The last two naps did nothing, except left me hanging in the middle of a sleep cycle. I have a constant dull pain/sleep signal going off in my forhead and behind my eyes. I felt some chest pain earlier. I have to pee a lot, and still very cold and hungry all the time. We went downtown to pass the time during the last cycle. I was too tired to really get into it, but damn did the time fly. We left quick to get back in time for the 1am nap, which sucked ass. My brain is fuxored, my eyes can't focus for very long at any one time. This must be what being addicted to pain killers is like. Maybe I will die.
On the plus side, I haven't had to drive for a few days thanks to my new chauffers Ty and Neetu.
I have a test next Monday and a paper due next Tuesday. I expect to hit some refreshing naps soon so I'll be able to study and get that done. People in my classes were like "you're going to have memory loss, you can't remember stuff on sleep deprivation."
It's the second night of our new polyphasic napping transition. It's insane. I am sooooo psyched that this is actually going to work out. Ty is already passed the hard phase, so it's totally possible. It's 4:40 in the morning and he is more than functional. My last nap was a failure. I laid there trying to fall asleep with no luck. so, i missed that one. Oh well, the next one is in 20 minutes. I'm gonna sleep like a baby. During the day, the napping is great because it is an energy burst every 3 1/2 hours. Who wouldn't like that. I was much more alert and attentive today during school, which normally doesn't happen. This is a great way to continue living. I will have so much more time to do all of the things that I have even the slightest interest in pursuing or just trying out. Ok, too tired to write. It takes too long to type right now and my eyes are getting blurry. Reminder to self: post congratulatory/encouragement letter to myself during next cycle.
I do not want to be here right now.
My shoulder hurts.
My head is pounding.
My feet feel the pain of that fucking infection.