Apparently I didn't even set my alarm this time. Although now I've acertained my magic oversleep number is 2 hours. Does this mean I have to start over?...Just say the word, I need a YES or NO from both Neetu and Ty on this one.
Last night I had the most vivid dream yet. I had no idea dreaming could be so intense. I was at school, but it was in front of this DAM that had just blown over. I swear I could feel the water...very intense.
I set my alarm on that dream for only 20 mins. I don't really know why, but for some reason I felt like I had to try that out to see how I'd feel. It was about the same as the standard 30, although the REM time was cut short by the alarm, which went off right in the middle of the intense dreaming.
I had my first
I had woken up naturally after about 15 minutes of sleep, and as I was drifting back into dreamland, I realized that I was sleeping right as I started to dream. I thought "wow... let's try out this lucid dream stuff" and leapt off some stairs. I hit the pavement and it felt like real pain, although it didn't last. Then I figured that I needed to think about flying, and as soon as I did, I could feel myself being yanked way into the air.
It was a strange experience. I could barely see what was happening in the dream... everything was really fuzzy. But I could feel it as if it was actually happening. I woke up after just a minute or so.
Actually, they don't.
But there is a point to this I promise. Every now and then I come into these times of my life where I "take the limits off" and dream the impossible - or just the really difficult.
As a type A, INTJ personality I can't say that this time is always enjoyable. I question everything that I am a part of, pick up and drop a hobby or two, and re-plan my whole near future. Often times when I am like this I think of myself as a bit erratic and foolish. I like to have things planned out. I like to know where I am going. I like to know how I am going to cover rent, where I am moving post school, and what kind of work I am going to do. And when I dream...It all gets messed up.
But I have learned to embrace this time of life - at least this time around. I am in the baby stages of some new dreams but have uncovered a passion for programing work and front end development. In a little over two months I will be graduating from school with a music degree and for the first time in years, I feel like I am falling in love with it. I still love the french language and want to use that professionally some day and am still passionate about voice health/therapy and speech pathology. I am overwhelmed by my own passions and dreams sometimes....
And I love it. I love that I can't see the end of any of these things nor how they are going to pan out. For now, I'll keep dreaming - then planning - then dreaming - then planning.