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A Lucid Dream

I had my first lucid dream since beginning this thing.

I had woken up naturally after about 15 minutes of sleep, and as I was drifting back into dreamland, I realized that I was sleeping right as I started to dream. I thought "wow... let's try out this lucid dream stuff" and leapt off some stairs. I hit the pavement and it felt like real pain, although it didn't last. Then I figured that I needed to think about flying, and as soon as I did, I could feel myself being yanked way into the air.

It was a strange experience. I could barely see what was happening in the dream... everything was really fuzzy. But I could feel it as if it was actually happening. I woke up after just a minute or so.

They Call Me A Dreamer...

On Growing Up

Actually, they don't.

But there is a point to this I promise. Every now and then I come into these times of my life where I "take the limits off" and dream the impossible - or just the really difficult.

As a type A, INTJ personality I can't say that this time is always enjoyable. I question everything that I am a part of, pick up and drop a hobby or two, and re-plan my whole near future. Often times when I am like this I think of myself as a bit erratic and foolish. I like to have things planned out. I like to know where I am going. I like to know how I am going to cover rent, where I am moving post school, and what kind of work I am going to do. And when I dream...It all gets messed up.

But I have learned to embrace this time of life - at least this time around. I am in the baby stages of some new dreams but have uncovered a passion for programing work and front end development. In a little over two months I will be graduating from school with a music degree and for the first time in years, I feel like I am falling in love with it. I still love the french language and want to use that professionally some day and am still passionate about voice health/therapy and speech pathology. I am overwhelmed by my own passions and dreams sometimes....

And I love it. I love that I can't see the end of any of these things nor how they are going to pan out. For now, I'll keep dreaming - then planning - then dreaming - then planning.

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