So back in January, I wrote out my 7 goals for the year. It's been two months, so let's see how I'm doing :
1. Become FULLY polyphasic
I'm close on this one. Many days I go perfectly, sometimes if I have nothing to do I oversleep and then skip some naps during the day. I'm actually pretty satisfied with that, as I'm only sleeping 2.5-4.5 hours per night, I'm never tired, and can always count on being awake early and staying up late. I'll keep pressing to be more consistent, but I'm satisfied with where I am.
2. Gain 15lb of lean muscle
No progress here at all. I tried working out really hard once while polyphasic and it wiped me out and caused a major oversleep. I waver on whether or not I really care enough to do the work necessary to gain the muscle. I think I do, but it's not at the top of the priority list. I still expect to finish this by the end of the year, though.
3. Make a million dollars by my birthday this year
I hate to admit defeat, but this isn't going to happen. I don't like telling people when my birthday is, but I don't have the time unless something particularly lucky happens. And I don't want to rely on luck.
That said, I'm recovering pretty well from my financial disaster this year. New plans are in place that should make me very rich within 5-10 years at most. Most of my productive energy goes towards this goal. My new goal is to make a million by my next birthday. I will need to ramp things up into high gear, but it's possible without a doubt.
4. Become a relatively well known rapper
This one is going ok, and I think I am on track. I freestyle every day for an hour, and have been getting really good recently. I have a whole file filled with good lines I've come up with that are just waiting to be put into a song. I'm procrastinating working with DZK because I want our song to be great in case I don't get another one with him. I don't think this is necessarily a smart move, though.
Neil Strauss, a friend of mine who used to review music for the Rolling Stone and New York listened to my latest songs and said that he thinks I'm good enough to go pro. This is huge for me because he's always listened to my songs, pointed out the good and bad, but never said anything that made me think he thought I was good enough. I didn't want to ask, because I didn't want to pressure him to say yes.
I definitely have a lot of work to do here, but I'm making good progress overall.
5. Find and date one incredible girl OR date several great girls-
Ugh. Not much progress here at all. Not that I've met all that many great girls in clubs, but I haven't been going out recently. With no real job and no school, I meet almost no new girls on a regular basis. I find attracting them easy, but finding them nearly impossible.
Also, I'm pretty apathetic here, just like #2. I'd say that in any given week, there are two hours or so where I actively wish I had a girl with me. The rest of the time I just don't care. This is probably part of the problem. I'm going to call Tyler today and figure out when he's coming down to get me back up to speed.
6. Enlarge my social circle
Actually, I'm pretty happy with my progress here. I've made one new really cool friend who actually found me through my blog. I've also been spending more time with my old friends whose company I really enjoy. Even if my social circle isn't that much bigger, it is fuller.
7. Do something REALLY nice for someone or a group of people
I'll admit it... nothing to report here. I have a great idea for this, I just have to plan it.
How am I doing overall?
Honestly, I am not at all happy with my progress overall. I waste a tremendous amount of time. What's worse is that I'm conscious of it and do nothing to fix it. Maybe I'm being too hard on my self, but if I was on the outside watching me on a daily basis, I would immediately think "Man.. this guy is lazy".
Here's what I am happy about :
I guess that's not TOO bad for two months, but I know I can do a LOT better. In fact... F this... I have an idea and I'm going to continue in a new post.
I have been a little business man since I was in 6th grade. I am really quite the genious when it comes to ideas for businesses. I just lack the resources to get them going. You see to be the type of person that can get anything to work. You could sell ice to an eskimo, a vacuum to a vacuum salesman. You have any tips or tricks for a young entrepreneur? Would be awesome btw the website that I posted ^^ I created as a business venture, problem is that its mainly marketed to younger people that have no means of paying. Kinda blows but im learning as I go.
I don't know the best way to do it, but I basically attacked it with brute force. I freestyle every day for about an hour or so. I do it the entire time that I'm in the shower, usually for 15-20 minutes before, and also most of the time when I'm in my car alone.
At first you will be totally useless and unable to come up with two lines that rhyme on the fly. After a few months you'll be able to rap for a few seconds at a time, probably mostly regurgitated thug stuff you've heard on the radio. It's easy to rhyme that stuff.
Later you'll start being able to rap about any topic (try rapping about what you see as you walk or drive around), rap for 30 seconds to a minute.
Then finally you'll be able to rap indefinitely (basically ) and will start being able to do more complex stuff like inside rhmyes. I'm sure it only gets better from there, but that's basically where I'm at now.
Your'e totally right about one thing - I'm not really commited to that goal. More accurately, it's just not a priority at the moment.
And to set the record straight for all you readers at home... Magnus is a king among PUAs... my skills (especially these days) pale in comparison! (That sounds sarcastic, but it's not)
Dude in 5 nights in Austin I got 5 numbers, 4 tonguedowns, and two options to go home with on Valentines night... you have more l33t PUA sk1llz than me, but factor in the Brit TALLY HO element and we should come out even.
Just go out, and stop waiting for Tyler to give you permission to talk to a girl.
It sounds like you haven't really set your mind to most of these goals... going Raw was not on the list, but you achieved that, so that's really what you set your mind to.
Been a while since my last post. I'm still on it. I had a falling out around Thanksgiving with 3-4 days of extreme oversleeping. Where I'm at right now:
I tend to oversleep daily. Just random times. Seems out of my control. Like I will sleepwalk, turn off my alarm, go back to sleep. Or randomly fall asleep at my computer, or find myself in my living room, very confused as to what's going on and what time it is.
I'm usually really exhausted and out of it at 6 am-10am, and then feel fine after 11am...almost like clockwork. But then I will oversleep at other random times when I actually feel okay, like 2pm.
I've always been bad at dealing with reality. But I feel like I've finally gotten a foothold in it.
I'm slowly transitioning back from a hedonistic, short-term mindset to a realistic, balanced mindset. There's always tomorrow. I don't have to experience everything today. No longer do I believe that my life will actually end soon, as I had for a long, long time. I seriously thought that I was going to have to kill myself as the solution to my problems. Problems that kept deteriorating because I couldn't deal with them. Didn't have the slightest clue how to deal with them. Cause I couldn't deal with reality. Cause I have Asperger's Syndrome. Because, basically, I am an idiot savant. Maybe not as idiot, but also not as savant.
Anyways, the only solution to my problems was suicide. But that's not true anymore. I have hope. I don't have to have everything figured out right now. I don't have to account for all possible scenarios, all possible permutations, so that I make the empirically best choice. I'm going to rely on my whole brain to learn instead of taxing my frontal lobe until it explodes. I'm becoming more human, like I always wanted to be. I've definitely made a lot of progress, and I'm very happy for that. When I was a kid, I always felt like a shell of a person. Now I know why.
Now I can deal with life.