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Back on Track

I just took my 9pm and I feel pretty good, but not 100% - just like usual. I don't think that oversleep really affected my progress much.

I did make the Overkill Alarm Clock (tm) - It's a laptop that does nothing but run a cool alarm clock program. It's hooked up to a separate stereo system with a speaker on each side of the bed. I've preprogrammed all of my waking up times, so I don't even need to remember.

Hung out with Manish and Neetu and they are doing well too. We're all going downtown now to help stay awake. I feel like tomorrow or the next day may be when it finally snaps into place and I feel as good or better as when I was sleeping normally.

Captain Crunch

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It's been a busy day. At ten o'clock in the evening I was eating a box of Captain Crunch while studying in one of the university buildings. Now it's one in the morning, I'm still eating Captain Crunch, and I'm in the lobby of my dormitory pretending to study. Part of me wants to go upstairs and go to sleep, but I'm usually up until around two or three on the weeknights. My classes don't start until eleven (intentionally scheduled), so it's not much of a problem if I'm up late. My roommate is up late too.

So since I've decided to stay up, I'm sitting here, in a little nook, eating my Captain Crunch and reflecting on my life recently. Honestly, I've been kind of a jerk lately. I've been snappy and I've become frustrated or irritated very quickly. Maybe it's because I've realized that the semester is halfway over, that I'm in the final days, and that in a few weeks I'll be heading home, wrapping up my freshman year of college. Maybe it's because right now, my classes aren't going the way I want them to, and I feel stressed. Maybe it's the anticipation of summer. Maybe it's because I've spent a year living and studying with the same group of people. Maybe I'm a little homesick. Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep. Maybe it's something else.

I can't really figure it out. But I need to change it. It's not fair for me to act this way towards the people around me, who have done nothing wrong. So when I finish this box of Captain Crunch, I'm going to give the rest of the semester a chance. I'm going to have a fresh start. I'm going to be aware that this is something within me, not the people around me, and I am going remember that when I am talking with these people.

Signing off,

L.M. & Captain Crunch

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