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So This is What a Real Job is Like

From my high horse of self employment, I have stepped into the mud to play with the employed commonfolk. I mentioned a couple times earlier that I was considering getting a real job, but I didn't want to get into details until it actually happened.

It happened.

Quitting gambling came abruptly, so I didn't have a solid backup plan in place. There's the ebook I wrote and this blog, but neither makes close to enough to constitute a living. For a few months I wandered, considering different options, but didn't find anything I love.

They Call Me A Dreamer...

On Growing Up

Actually, they don't.

But there is a point to this I promise. Every now and then I come into these times of my life where I "take the limits off" and dream the impossible - or just the really difficult.

As a type A, INTJ personality I can't say that this time is always enjoyable. I question everything that I am a part of, pick up and drop a hobby or two, and re-plan my whole near future. Often times when I am like this I think of myself as a bit erratic and foolish. I like to have things planned out. I like to know where I am going. I like to know how I am going to cover rent, where I am moving post school, and what kind of work I am going to do. And when I dream...It all gets messed up.

But I have learned to embrace this time of life - at least this time around. I am in the baby stages of some new dreams but have uncovered a passion for programing work and front end development. In a little over two months I will be graduating from school with a music degree and for the first time in years, I feel like I am falling in love with it. I still love the french language and want to use that professionally some day and am still passionate about voice health/therapy and speech pathology. I am overwhelmed by my own passions and dreams sometimes....

And I love it. I love that I can't see the end of any of these things nor how they are going to pan out. For now, I'll keep dreaming - then planning - then dreaming - then planning.

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