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If I Were President

Just for fun, here are all of my political views. I'm not super into politics at all - in fact before Bush started screwing everything up, I had zero interest in them. I definitely haven't done enough research to have definitive stances on most of these things, so take them with a grain of salt.

Taxes

This is the one I care about the most. Our tax system is extremely screwed up. Did you know that we're one of only TWO countries in the world who tax their citizens if they don't live in the country or make money in the country? If I spend a year traveling the world, making money online, I STILL have to pay taxes in the US (there's a partial exemption that it's possible to qualify for).

Fear

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I'm not sure what I'm more scared of, failure or success.

Failure, in my mind, would involve being judged by other people and being ostracized from those whose respect I crave. I fear failure because I want to be "cool," I want other people to be moved by the things I create. I am afraid that if I am not good enough in the eyes of those around me I will not be accepted as part of the pack.

Success is another story entirely. I fear success because, to be cliche, "with power comes responsibility." I fear that I will have some success, but I won't be strong enough to live up to the expectations I have set. I fear that if I realize my true potential, I will be locked into a path that I will be unable to break free from. I also fear that by being successful I would be ostracized as well. It seems so much more comfortable to just flow with the status quo, don't make any waves, and don't try to change anything.

Both of these fears, it seems, ultimately stem from the fear of judgement. I have no idea how to free myself from this. One way that I can work towards overcoming this fear, is to be mindful when I am judging myself or other people. If I can break my own habit of being judgmental, the fear will have less control over me.

In a few hours I'll be getting on my flight to Sweden! Regardless of my fears I am about to embark on a major life transition. Two months in Sweden, one month back in Arizona, and then return to Brooklyn to become a full-time student. I'm excited and nervous and I can't wait to see how it all plays out. After talking about the plans and goals I would like to accomplish while overseas, I've decided that perhaps they were a bit too ambitious. I want to set more attainable goals that will give me some leeway to make mistakes and improve. Rather than trying to meditate, exercise, and write every morning, and beatbox and freestyle every evening, I'll make it a goal to accomplish three of those five things, four days a week. Setting more achievable goals will help me to build successful momentum.

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